感じあえたあの夜は冷たく凍てつき
奥深く眠る解放の底へ
気持ちは遠く離れた奇妙な感覚
綺麗に見えた日々毒の花園
極度の苛立ち覚えた日からもう
他の誰かを探していた
もう崩してしまった夜は戻らず
君に会う度嘘をついていた
僕がそこに今は遠く離れていた
今は愛せない事実が
重すぎて苦しく哀しい
夜が長すぎた 切ない
君に起こった一つの事故が僕を悩ませ
君を救う言葉の一つも言えず冷めた
僕がそこに居た
今は嘘でもいいなら抱き締めようか
君の為になるなら何度でも見つめた
他の誰かに抱かれ･･･
だから少しでも近くに居られる様に
嘘でも今は心を殺していた
最初で最後の夜は過ぎ去った
貴方は最後までも気付かない振りをしていた
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kanji aeta ano yoru wa tsumetaku ite tsuki
okubukaku nemuru kaihou no soko e
kimochi wa touku hanareta kimyouna kankaku
kirei ni mieta hibi doku no hanazono
kyokudo no iradachi oboeta hi kara mou
hoka no dare ka o sagashite ita
mou kuzushite shimatta yoru wa modorazu
kimi ni au tabi uso o tsuite ita
boku ga soko ni ima wa touku hanareteta
ima wa aisenai jijitsu ga
omosugite kurushiku kanashii
yoru ga nagasugita setsunai
kimi ni okotta hitotsu no jiko ga boku o nayamase
kimi o sukuu kotoba no hitotsu mo iezu sameta
boku ga soko ni ita
ima wa uso de mo ii nara dakishimeyou ka
kimi no tame ni naru nara nando demo mitsumeta
hoka no dare ka ni idakare…
dakara sukoshi demo chikaku ni irareru you ni
uso demo ima wa kokoro o koroshiteta
saisho de saigo no yoru wa sugisatta
anata wa saigo made mo kizukanai furi o shite ita
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that night we were able feel each other, turned freezing cold
deeply slumbering, to the depths of release
the feeling, is a strange sensation far removed from me
days that seemed so beautiful, in the poison flower garden
from that day I felt such extreme aggravation onward,
I've been looking for someone else.
that night it all fell apart will never be again
everytime I meet you, I've lied.
because now I'm so far removed from there.
the fact that I can't love you anymore
weighs heavilly on me, tortures and saddens me
the night was too long, it pains me
the accident which happened to you, causes me concern
unable to say any words of comfort, I cooled to you
I was there.
If you don't care that it's not for real, I'll hold you
For you, I looked as much as you wanted
while getting fucked by someone else…
so that I can be even just a little closer to you,
even if its not real, I stifled my heart for now
that first and final night has passed
you pretended not to know until the very end
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