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Lyrics
Japanese	Rōmaji	Translation
愛しすぎていたね　あの頃の僕はいつでもそう でももう見飽きたよ　腕に別の人がいるね すぐに愛せなくなり　憎しみが込み上げるよ 叩き壊したくなる　僕の我がままも好きかい 言葉よりももっと求めていた 体だけを求めていたよ 鏡の前でただ1人演じきった道化師が そっと僕の前に寄り言うのさ 君を苦しめるのは僕かそれとも彼女か 1人の僕が囁くのさ 気付く頃には傷つけていた 解り合えない僕がいるよ 鏡の前でただ1人演じきった道化師が そっと僕の前に寄り言うのさ 君を苦しめるのは僕かそれとも彼女か 1人の僕が囁くのさ 最後はこんな形なんて　気が遠くなるほどに痛くて 目の前で君が笑い叫ぶ　赤いカミソリ見つめながら	Aishisugite ita ne　Ano koro no boku wa itsu demo sō Demo mō miakita yo　Ude ni betsu no hito ga iru ne Sugu ni aisenaku nari　Nikushimi ga komiageru yo Tataki kowashitaku naru　Boku no wagamama mo suki kai Kotoba yori mo motto motomete ita Karada dake o motomete ita yo Kagami no mae de tada hitori enji kitta piero ga Sotto boku no mae ni yori iu no sa Kimi o kurushimeru no wa boku ka sore tomo kanojo ka Hitori no boku ga sasayuku no sa Kizuku koro ni wa kizutsukete ita Wakariaenai boku ga iru yo Kagami no mae de tada hitori enji kitta piero ga Sotto boku no mae ni yori iu no sa Kimi o kurushimeru no wa boku ka sore tomo kanojo ka Hitori no boku ga sasayuku no sa Saigo wa konna katachi nante　Ki ga tooku naru hodo ni itakute Me no mae de kimi ga warai sakebu　Akai kamisori mitsume nagara	I loved you too much, that's what I always did back then. But I'm tired of watching you, I already have somebody else in my arms. Immediately, I cannot love you, hatred is welling up inside of me. I just want to destroy everything, do you like my selfishness as well? I wanted more than I could say. I longed only for your body. In front of the mirror, a clown, the only person performing. Just came close to me and asked, Is it her or me that is torturing you? I'm all alone and mumbling to myself. I had already hurt you before realizing it. Here I am, but we'll never understand each other. In front of the mirror, a clown, the only person performing. Just came close to me and asked, Is it her or me that is torturing you? I'm all alone and mumbling to myself I can't believe the end has come like this, I'm dizzy from the pain. You are laughing and screaming in front of me, looking at the blood-red razor.
These lyrics were translated by Jewels.

Trivia

• This song was initially called 新曲4 Shinkyoku 4 ("New Song 4") during Dir En Grey's indies days in 1997–98. In one issue of SHOXX, it's called 4 (仮) 4 (Kari) ("4 (temp.)"). By June 1998, the band had decided on the song's title, but wrote it in Katakana as レイズンデートル reizun dētoru, as you can see in this video.

Other Versions
Name	Appears on
新曲4	–
4 (仮)	–
レイズンデートル	–
raison detre　NANAGO Mix	改-KAI- (2001)